wow

Im not sure whats going on with me this week...It seems there is so much stress and confusion and hurt going on around me and mainly caused by me that I fear i may do damage.I am praying hard and steadfast to you God that you will take the reins and row this back in....I love you

control

I will no longer worry about things I cant control...God I think Im ready to give you control.It is what it is and will be what it will be....

2010 let it begin.....

Starting off work is stressing me to my core here lately,Im so sick of everyone getting to coast while im accountable for every stinking thing....really becoming annoying....but I love my job and I know thats just part of it. I really do feel as if life is gonna happen......I never thought I would be one of those people who get to be happy,I had assumed I get to live hum drum and just settle.....NOT! I am taking control....I was always told your in control of your own happiness and Im taking control of this life and I chose to do with it what I want.I am accountable to the Lord for things and cant blame anyone but me for anything.I do know this......I am well blessed beyond anyworth I have and I am so very thankful for you....yes you..........you are amazing and wonderful,kind and considerate, you have a temper but dont we all... it keeps things hoppin......you are a true child of God and you are a Blessing. Thank you for all of your kind words and your prayers for me and my son.Thank you for talking me down when things get out of control,thank you for your cool head when my head is gonna blow....simply thank you.....thank you

Life.......

twill begin soon.......should be terrified.....no apprehinsion at all......excited actually and at peace with everything.....just ready for thangs to get popping.....God thank you for my manu undeserved blessings ,for without you I am nothing.....and most of all also to the starfish.....you are completly amazing and completly complete me