God Help me

Im so sad....feels like its all slipping away

Lord please.......

All I am asking for is this junk to be all over.....I cant handle the pressure much longer, I try and be strong and hope for the best,God I know you will provide and do what is your will...but it really is so very frusterating right now.....just want new beginings,I have so many dreams and somedays thinking of them hurts because I feel so trapped in this situation....yes I know God your plan is the way....I trust in you, but I dont feel its way over my boundaries to request you step up the pace is it? If so then I apologize but wizzer man cmon lol.....You know the plans in my heart and they are genuine and true,you know my heart still has so much love in it, its not dead God......I love you and Im so very thankful for every single blessing you bestow upon me and my circle daily....you are amazing.........and to the starfish.....this is a testament to just how amazing you are and I know it sucks ,I promise you good things and I will deliver!

Just know that you are loved, I have never had these feelings for anyone and I want this...for my whole life and my forever I want this...I will honor and cherish you all the days of my life....things are backwards and screwy right now, but a time will come, when the struggle,sorry to quote hannah montana but "the climb" will be all so worth it.....our worlds are meshing now and its a glimpse that has been wonderful....to see things in action and watching them progress are really making me excited for things to come....you and God are my blessings and I am forever thankful for this......I cant wait until that day I do ........that says it all........I do...............always and forever my heart is yours....I love you

says it all........

I really have been in a wierd place here lately and its really been a downer for everyone involved in the passion play that is"my life" but I am so ready to change all of it......I have the strong backing of love and awesomeness I have always wanted and if I keep walking this trail Im on I am certain I will push them away......I ask for your forgiveness and just bear with me.....Brian will be on the scene very shortly........byw this song says it all

God, I'm down here on my knees Cause it's the last place left to fall Beggin' for another chance If there's any chance at all That you might still be listenin'Lovin' and forgivin' guys like me I've spent my whole life gettin' it all wrong And I sure could use your help cause from now on
I wanna be a good man
A "do like I should" man
I wanna be the kind of man the mirror likes to see
I wanna be a strong man
And admit that I was wrong man
God I'm asking you to come change me
into the man I wanna be

3/9/2009

What a great day today is..........365 days of pure bliss.....God, thank you for everything =)

Cram it down

Days of late I have really been pushing things way inside and really ignoring my feelings with hopes and prayers that all of this will just go away...unfortunantly its not and its causeing me to be kind of bitter and to lash out at those who love me.......THAT CRAP ENDS RIGHT NOW........I am making the decision that I am turning my life over to God ( I know again) and Im going to allow him to work in my life and allow others to do so as well......I dont want this bitter hatred to consume me one second more...I ask you to forgive me and I will spend forever making you known to the world.....I love you!!

Never have been real wordy so I know this is short and sweet but I take it so serious and to my heart....I kneel at your feet Lord,I praise you and I thank you!

all im gonna say is...........wow......................Wow............WOW.............